Repeating songs of my mood :
Currently Listening to: Eyes on Me - Final Fantasy VIII
Next: I Love You - Fun Factory

Just felt like talking abt it.

Busy weeks after busy weeks, have been posting on events and programmes.
Wat abt mood? i guess i'm really in no position to talk abt that, moreover talking abt studying hard? :/ can i? I dun think i can.
Ppl told me: "JieJin; U've changed alot"
When i asked wat was the change, all kinds of reasons were said, some didn't wanted to even tell me any.
I promised my parents, even not for my own sake, for them i will also get a gd cert for my O's, BUT i'm doubting my own strength and limits. =x I dun think i can do it. My heart is not even into studying.
I tried talking to ppl abt all these things, but seems no one except myself can give a better explaination of what i myself is doing and my own future path.
This period of time, KERs frens are there for me, sch frens? maybe just the 1 or 2? or maybe non at all? I dun have the gd feeling once telling them things. I aplogise if i said wrongly? :// But guess if i'm not wrong, i guess i am right by saying that? Ppl who visits my blog are ppl of my outside frens and KERs of the mains. Sch? Non? Almost all are putting on their masks. I cant "Recognise" u'll any longer?
Suddenly the urged of keeping silent to myself, and no one to disturb me?

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1 great friendship that i will nvr beable to put down will be the friendship with KERs' . Duh we're not so close but still, they're the one that makes my day on weekends, they're the ones there when i really need someone to talk to? maybe. Thanks for sharing laughter & sorrows together. If one day, my life is without u'll will i beable to survive through? i know each of u'll have yr own sch frens to associate with. But mine? i doubt! Even one that is 5 years in the same class as me, i cant even share a single thing with him. Y? cause he's jsut like the others, once a word is out, almost everyone will know, to some of them maybe it's funny and its ok, but have they thought for the others? I doubt that have even went through their brains. MY class? like wat is mentioned by 1 of my classmate, it's an enviroment that is defintely inappropriate to studying in. What's more with all those people that are only intrested in SAYING, and not with actions.
I've tried putting in my effort into studying, but once the class gets noisy or irritated my motivation got interrupted and off i go into slp. Keeping myself awake is always wat i wanted, but facts proven that no matter how early i goes to slp, my minds only starts resting after 12midnight. So wat can i do? nth? :/ Ppl will just say it's a bad habit, so wat if it is? so wat if it's not? it doesn't matter anymore, if u guys can just let the class be silent everyone concentrating, no one making stupid noises, i doubt i will even fall asleep, my motivation will be there to keep me awake. Haish whatever. the most crucial thing now is my studies, and i am determined to make something of it. I'm not gonna be a Good for nth person.
My Target is there for me to think, My Goals are there for me to Ponder, My Actions MUST BE THERE FOR me to ACHieve! & I will prove that i can!
i just need sometime to have everything settled, putting everything aside and i will concentrate with my studies from that on.

My Parents; Thanks for giving me yr support all along. thank you!
KERs' Peeps; Really thanks alot for always being there for me, i enjoyed all the outings, events and activites we guys had together, the chalets pwns, the tonnings, & The Celebrations!
Others that have been there unknowningly; Thank you. i appreciates it.

Give me sometime, & I will prove.